Looking around the room at the strewn bottles of SunnyD and Diet Coke,
Guess what I did today? Among the much needed cleaning and organizing and Thank You letters written today… I managed to get my new Social Security card and Drivers’ License!!! Officially legally MRS. R now! Legally recognized by Federal and State! WOOT!!
But I was pretty pissed that I can’t change my middle name to my maiden name as is traditional in my family still. My state doesn’t allow for middle name changes?! I’m like, right cause obviously I’m a mobster in hiding… sigh. I’m still going by my maiden name as my middle name though, thank you very much!
I’ve heard people complain about their weddings, the “adults” in my life that is. But I didn’t really understand until now. I’m going through planning a wedding and it’s mind boggling how much extra nonsense other family members manage to put into the wedding planning.
There have been a number of times throughout the process that my brain has thought, “Why didn’t I elope like I always wanted to?” I have to remind myself that eloping may be easier, but I want my family around me to celebrate. I wanted my friends to be there as well, but that option was taken out from under me. I should start at the beginning of the drama. But I don’t have the energy. This might be something I reflect back on for y’all in a few months instead.
I’m beginning to get more nervous about my abilities at work. I lost a lot of logic and reasoning skills with my strokes and I used to do physical therapy to work on that stuff. It’s been years since the therapy had been more than a passing”oh I should do that again” thought… But now I am beginning to see how necessary it is that I should have kept that up. I wonder how much my lapsing is damaging on a permanent scale or if ,as my friends exclaim, “that math stuff can always come back!”
The Imposter Complex- Being so brilliant that you can see the brilliance around you and believe you can never measure up, believe that you’ll be found out for the fraud you are.
What an interesting contradiction this is. The level of intelligence required to get to this belief is proof in itself that anyone with it is indeed brilliant as well and is a peer among those they see brilliance in.
Individual expression of spirituality is essential to inner strength. How each person expresses or experiences their spirituality is different. I think people are often scared off from experiencing their personal spirituality, because our society has taught us to equate religion as synonymous with spirituality. I consider this unfortunate. Because, though religion is very largely sought and often positively influential, it isn’t the only means of exploring personal spirituality.